... and think "wtf was I thinking?" rofl. Omg I'm gonna die. XDDD;; I just took a look at all the art I had (in storage or otherwise) on dA and OMG. And holy shit the cheesy names don't help.
I haven't seen these in YEARS and it's so bloody embarrassing to look at akfhlksflas. But at the same time, it shows my learning curves, and I don't want to be ashamed of my art just because I did it years ago. That's the whole thing... I did it years ago. I am and was learning. I'm tired of freaking out just because I think my art sucked so hard it could make a black hole, rofl.
I want a sense of humor, I don't want to take art too seriously and be uptight about it. I've seen far too many of my favorite artists do that and go downhill. They rip all their art down, regardless of how many people thought it was amazing, and then their own unique style starts to disappear... and they may eventually stop posting their art. It's sad.
I also don't want to cut myself down about my art anymore. Geez, like thinking my art sucks is gonna make me magically draw better. It just makes me want to draw less, therefore I don't practice and learn.
Anyway, I'm gonna try to practice more and upload more art if my health stays relatively stable. I may not have improved *too* much since my last drawing, but I haven't been drawing hardly at ALL in YEARS. I'm surprised I've improved at all. That itself is impressive, considering what I've been through. I've also become a little more ambitious and found a few new techniques I'd like to try.
Anyway, I think the best thing you can do for yourself and for the people who enjoy your art, is to keep up even what you think is old, ugly, and ridiculous. Because it really, really encourages people, you know? To see that their favorite artists were amateurs once, and that they had to learn, just like the rest of us. Not everything you post needs to be portfolio grade, especially on a large, fun, community site like deviantART.
Just a thought.
P.S. Figures I'd start posting more on deviantART AFTER my subscription runs out. *mumblegrumble* >.>
-Pepper